Anaïs Nin, in a letter to Henry Miller (via inthefadinglight)
HOW THE FUCK HAVE I NEVER CREEPED ANAÏS NIN, THOUGH?
also how did i never know she was [edited to remove strikethrough; clearly got distracted and never finished sentence.]
Nin began to pursue her interest in writing; in her diaries she also mentions having trained as a flamencodancer in Paris in the mid-to-late 1920s. Her first published work was a critical evaluation ofD. H. LawrencecalledD. H. Lawrence: An Unprofessional Study, which she wrote in sixteen days.
She was transformed by her therapy withOtto Rank, who broke with Freud over Freud’s failure to appreciate the power of women’s sexuality, the value of art, and the meaning of the mother-child relationship. On her second visit to Rank, Nin reflects on her desire to be “re-born,” feelingly, as a woman and artist. Rank, she observes, helped her move back and forth between what she could verbalize in her journals and what remained unarticulated. She discovered the quality and depth of her feelings in the wordless transitions between what she could say and what she could not say. “As he talked, I thought of my difficulties with writing, my struggles to articulate feelings not easily expressed. Of my struggles to find a language for intuition, feeling, instincts which are, in themselves, elusive, subtle, and wordless”.
Nin referred to her simultaneous marriages as her “bicoastal trapeze”. According to Deidre Bair:[Anaïs] would set up these elaborate façades in Los Angeles and in New York, but it became so complicated that she had to create something she called the lie box. She had this absolutely enormous purse and in the purse she had two sets of checkbooks. One said Anaïs Guiler for New York and another said Anaïs Pole for Los Angeles. She had prescription bottles from California doctors and New York doctors with the two different names. And she had a collection of file cards. And she said, “I tell so many lies I have to write them down and keep them in the lie box so I can keep them straight.”
In 1966, Nin had her marriage with Pole annulled, due to the legal issues arising from both Guiler and Pole having to claim her as a dependent on their federal tax returns. Though the marriage was annulled, Nin and Pole continued to live together as if they were married, up until her death in 1977.
Anonymous asked: what do you mean you lost people over politics? because their views were incompatible with yours? what particular kinds of politics?
I have no interest in people who can’t recognize their privledge. Language is also really important to me. I have no patience for sexist, racist, cissexist garbage. I have friends that have different beliefs and identify with different schools of thought then me but I have no tolerance for apathy, ignorance or hate.
once again arabelle raphael is my dream girl